I went to the store today. Something that stuck to me was the utter relief I felt ten to twenty minutes after deciding not to buy a hair dye i wasn't 100% sure I wanted.
I feel like the biggest lie people that know me believe is that I'm an endlessly patient person. I'm not.
When I decide I'm unhappy with the way I look or bored with the way I live, I feel an overwhelming urge to change something immediately. I get the feeling I'm not being my most authentic self if I don't make the change I want as soon as possible, even if it is something as small as a new hairstyle or a new set of earrings.
It's hard to admit the, and forgive me for not making this sound any smarter, culture of the world we live in affects me the same way it does many others. I don't like admitting to myself I make mistakes or am stuck in unhealthy patterns.
But that seems to be the unfortunate truth, even if it isn't a full-blown dangerous addiction to overconsumption or whatever else my habits could, at their worst, lead me to. But it is an interesting thing to notice regardless.
Here's to recognizing your faults and stepping back when necessary. I don't need another dramatic change to suddenly become the person I am. I have been me the whole time, and will forever continue to be.
Also, I kind of think my natural hair colour looks cool. Here's to that, too!